|  | The Deal Susan sits low in her chair, her legs stretched out, crossed at the 
            ankles. She watches Jake in the barber's chair, the black apron 
            spread over his lap, his little shoes swinging a foot above the 
            floor. Beside her, Aaron thumbs through the pack of baseball cards 
            she bought for him at the Superette check-out. He tugs on her 
            sleeve.
 
 "Can I hold Jake's pack?"
 
 "No. I'm keeping it in my purse."
 
 "Why can't I hold it?"
 
 "Because you'll open it."
 
 He fidgets with his cards, shuffling them, turning them over, 
            studying the statistics. Across the room, the barber swivels Jake's 
            chair. The clippers buzz, racing up and down the back and sides of 
            his head, leaving tracks of pink scalp and short stubble. Small 
            black curls drift down, settle on Jake's shoulders, tumble down his 
            chest.
 
 "Can I please hold Jake's pack?" Aaron asks again.
 
 "No, I said... It's Jake's pack and you'll open it. Didn't you get 
            anyone you like in yours?"
 
 "No."
 
 "Nobody good?" She doesn't look at him, stares at the rain pelting 
            the front window.
 
 "I got some good ones, but nobody I like. Can I have another pack 
            while we wait?"
 
 She opens her purse and pulls out her wallet. Her husband's picture 
            watches as she counts the small stack of singles. She covers his 
            face with her thumb. Eleven dollars.
 
 "You'll have to wait 'til next time, honey. Sorry."
 
 Aaron sighs and stares at his sneakers. "I hope he doesn't get a 
            Roger Clemens."
 
 She isn't listening. She slides her thumb from the photo and looks 
            down at her husband's dark eyes. Three months since she last saw 
            him. One month since she last heard his voice. A collect call. He 
            said he was in Florida, but could have been lying. She remembers his 
            sigh when she begged him to come home.
 
 She folds her wallet, covering the photo, tucks it back into her 
            purse and looks at her watch. She wanted to be home by now. He may 
            call again. He might not leave a message if she isn't there.
 
 The barber swivels Jake away from the mirror, raises a smaller hand 
            mirror, shows him the back. He laughs as Jake tells him something 
            about first grade.
 
 Aaron tugs her sleeve again. "Do you think Jake will trade me Roger 
            Clemens for this card?" He holds up a picture of a man in Yankee 
            stripes, following through his swing, staring up out of the border 
            at the flight of a homerun ball. "This guy's pretty good."
 
 "I don't know. Maybe he won't get a Roger Clemens, either. Did you 
            think of that?"
 
 "But if he gets a Roger Clemens, do you think he'll trade me?"
 
 "I don't know." She grips his shoulder, twists to look him in the 
            eye. "But if he does get one and you want him to trade, never, ever 
            let him know how badly you want it."
     Signals      Hear the shrieks from the Erickson's trailer as you study Algebra on 
            your bed; listen to your parents talk briefly about calling the 
            police. Notice the Erickson's furthest left window fill with yellow 
            light, darken, then fill again. Close your book and watch the 
            blinking square until you see Sara's figure, their daughter, a plain 
            girl, the beckon of her hand. Walk past the flicker of television, 
            past your parents as they sit upright on the couch. Tiptoe across 
            the gravel drive, across the brittle grass of the lawn. Lay your 
            palms on the sill of Sara's window, pull yourself upward to take her 
            hand, slip inside. Listen as she whispers that she and her mother 
            are leaving in the morning, that she'll leave by herself if her 
            mother isn't able. When she asks you to make love to her, agree, 
            though Sara is four years your junior. Lift her shirt and feel the 
            nerves race under your skin as she touches your neck, guides your 
            face to her small breasts. Carry her to bed and find a rhythm to 
            match the stomping footfalls in the kitchen, the staccato chain of 
            curse words volleyed between husband and wife. Wonder if Sara's 
            gasps are from pleasure or the shock of each new threat, each new 
            sound that may or may not be the thuds of fist on flesh or the drop 
            of a body. When you leave her, step lightly back through your door, 
            past your snoring parents, slide a chair toward your window. Feel 
            sorry when you see Sara leave with a small, stuffed backpack, sorry 
            for her need to run, and sorry that this is the last time you'll be 
            summoned.
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